love,peace.

bloke 187.

2010-04-30T23:04:00.002+08:00

Azam bulan baru: be a better muslim, make mama and ayah happy, train siva afi everyday,
GET CLOSER TO HER!!!! :DD

bloke 186.

2010-04-18T00:50:00.003+08:00

THIS I GOT TO POST!

Malaysia 36 - 8 Chinese Taipei ( Taiwan )

Malaysia (ranked 68) beat China ( ranked 48 ) and now they beat Chinese Taipei ( ranked 50 )
and they're staying in DIV 1!! BAIK MALAYSIA!!! MALAYSIA BOLEH!!! CHEHOOO!
UP YOU GO IN THE RANKINGS!! hahahahah! CONGRAT GUYS!!
good job faiz! good job seniu!!! :D

bloke 185.

2010-04-15T00:02:00.003+08:00

MALAYSIA 20 - 22 SINGAPORE

Singapore playing like CRAP! tak habis2 ngan forward play.
Malaysia crap on the first 30mins and were awesome after that and abit indiscipline in the final few minutes. then there's the Referee.which i think he suck at referee-ing -.-'
like CMON! THERE WAS NO HIGH TACKLE!!! AND THE FIRST TRY WAS NOT EVEN A TRY!! CRAP! oh, he's Singaporean btw. which adds MORE to the story.. bleahhh..

okay whatever, Malaysia still won the game in the end. BEAT THOSE TAIWANESE!! CHEHHUUUU!!

and its late, better get some sleep.

Assalammualaikum people~

tofa soifua~

bloke 184.

2010-03-23T07:28:00.002+08:00

it's 7.30 in the morning. solat subuh tadi and now i cant sleep :D
mmm.. no plans for today. yea so much for a "holiday" bleahh..

MAYBE i'll update during the night.

assalamualaikum and good morning people!

malo lava~

bloke 183.

2010-03-15T16:44:00.011+08:00

sitting on top of my board, surrounded by nothing but water.
was there alone. sitting, wishing and waiting for something.
my mind went blank as the wave pushed me.
was floating around for a few seconds and turned back.
paddling, paddling right through the whitewash thinking that nothing can stop me.
wipeouted and into the sea i go. didn't do anything. didn't even swim up.
i let myself float in the water, smiling, at the same time praying and hoping for things
to get better. swam up as i about to lose my breath.
caught one final wave and back on land. by then, i realized it was already Maghrib.
washed up, pack my stuff and off i go the bus station.
Solat Maghrib while waiting for the bus back to Singapore.
Bus arrived, sitting right at the back where there's no one around.
just me sitting alone beside my board. 2 hours journey, sitting there with an MP3 player listening to what i've always listen too. reached home,

walking around the woodland bus interchange with Freaking matreps looking at me.
Freaking people never seen a guy with a surfboard walking around before.
Freaking people trying to take my happiness away from me.
Freaking people tak boleh nak tengok orang senang.
Freaking people mesti ade hasrat dengki dalam hati.

But i smiled anyway.

Because i know Allah is testing me. wanting me to be patient. (:

To those who read this. NOTE!

BBQ will be on

Friday 19|2|2010

Paris Park Pit 10 ( Near Aloha Loyang )

3pm - 11pm

do come down! eat eat eat!! okay?? :D

Assalamualaikum People!

Malo lava~

bloke 182.

2010-03-11T17:36:00.001+08:00

Off to surf, be back tomorrow night.

assalammualaikum people~

tofa~

bye pika pika!!!!! have fun in school! muahahhaa! >:]

bloke 181.

2010-03-09T20:41:00.003+08:00

im sorry i did that to you.
i didnt mean to hurt your feeling.
i know i've been a jerk to you.
hope you can forgive this stupid guy and give him another chance.

im sorry ):

bloke 180.

2010-03-08T00:06:00.001+08:00

Alangkah Indahnya~(:

bloke 179.

2010-03-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

bloke 178.

2010-03-05T23:33:00.002+08:00

OKOKOKOKOKOKOKOKOK!!

tomorrow longboarding session cancel disebabkan 2 ekor jembalang tak dpt hadir sebab nak pegi tengok Paramore concert! -.-'

13MAC BBQ WILL BE POSPONED!!
BAHHH!!

oya.. gna send out flyers out tmoro. sooo. okay, i dont even know why im blogging. tkde citer menarik. -.-' anyway... those who havent sleep yet, GO TO SLEEP!!
goodnight!

assalamualaikum everyone!

malo lava~

bloke 177.

2010-03-01T21:18:00.002+08:00

mmmm...

okok, i always wanted to say this since the first day i met her.

Aku bilang kau cantik dan mereka setuju.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~

k dah (:

assalammualaikum everyone!!

malo lava~

hehee.. :]

bloke 176.

2010-02-26T17:45:00.002+08:00

i'm just gonna take a minute and let it ride.
i'm just gonna take a minute and let it breeze..

bloke 175.

2010-02-23T23:07:00.002+08:00

sabar, redha, tawakal.
Tabahkan hatiku menerima dugaanmu,
kuatkan iman ku ya Allah.

bloke 174.

2010-02-23T16:34:00.002+08:00

mum scold me for not going to school today and oya, today im suppose to seat for a test!
but wth. tawakal je. i don't feel like going to school today, i feel crap today man..
thinking bout skipping school on friday and off to desaru for surf. the problem now is theres NO WAVE!! bleahhhh

thinking of buying a new board by end of this year. i can predict mum's gonna get mad. :P
ok i dont know what to blog about. nth much in my mind right now. so ooff i go!

assalamualaikum everyone.

malo lava!~

bloke 173.

2010-02-22T22:33:00.002+08:00

why everybody keep asking me if im in love?
okay dudes and duddets! NO! im not in love. there happy? nak ape lagi?

to that "someone"
yea, what you said is true BUT! jangan main tuduh orang lain just because you don't like that person! you dont even know the real story nak main tembak je.
jangan buat fitnah okay? bagi proof dulu bru bleh ckp. thank you (:

okay this THING keep bothering me.
i dont know what to do.

termenung jauh kat skola, not in the mood to talk to someone sometimes, get pissed off easily.

one day after school last week. i don't know why i have this feeling nak solat kat masjid.
so i did, lepas je amek wudu, ade orang asking me for money nak makan. i didnt give him any. sorry dude aku memang btul2 tkde duit nak bagi kau. and then this shitty feeling
appeared. the guilty feeling of not helping that man. BAHHHHH!!!

and so, i went in and solat asar.
lepas je raka'at kedua tears starts to fall. i don't know why im crying.
there was a man tengah mengaji, i think he saw me crying but didn't approach me tho.
lepas tahyat akhir, sat there alone thinking what have i done.

well thats another part of the story.

going to bed now. you guys take care..

assalamualaikum everyone
leila sa'eeda

malo lava~

bloke 172.

2010-02-18T00:50:00.002+08:00

bende ni tak sepatutnye berlaku.
dan bile aku mengenangkan kisah lame,
semuanye dah terlambat. nak menyesal pun tak gune.
mungkin ramai orang fikir 'benda' ni kecik punye hal je, but to me its like dosa besar.
rase bersalah sampai sekarang.

sorry if im being secretive. cause that's the way i am. hah!
sorry if i wont reply your msgs.
sorry if i termenung jauh in school or anything.
sorry if i dont talk to you guys.
sorry if i am being sensitive.

and lastly, sorry if you guys feel that i am very sombong.
just need a time alone.

well, it's 1.40 am now
better get some sleep.

assalamualaikum everyone.

manuia le po. ( goodnight )

malo lava~

bloke 171.

2010-02-15T00:16:00.002+08:00

Mengharapkan sesuatu yang aku tak akan dapat.
mesti ade bende yang tak kene or am i just stupid for hoping it will come true?
why must there be a disturbance? tak boleh ke aku jadi happy untuk satu hari?

mungkin aku tak mampu untuk menanggung 'benda' ni sume..

bloke 170.

2010-02-10T17:30:00.002+08:00

tired and things keep playing in my mind right now. been silent at home for the past few days.
mom kept asking me am i okay and all i did was nod and smiling a fake smile.
pretending to be happy when im not.

i don't know why but im not happy with myself.
im looking for answers but what the fish issit?! crap!! it's like
same seperti pukul bola golf and tkde lobang. get what i mean?

had this conversation with Slay last week during our surf session.

Me: 'Running,Running,Running.'
Slay: dude, kau lari lari ni.. kau kejar ape eh..?
Me: 'dead silent'.... kejar impian? (main hentam ckp)
Slay: ape impian kau?
Me: i dont know? kebahagiaan?
Slay: sume org nak tu bro, cume.. diorg ni taktau mcm mane nak dptkan bnde tu..
Me: abeh? cmne nak dpt bnde tu?
Slay: 3 je..
Me: pe dia?
Slay: hidup kene jujur, ikhlas dan hidup ni kite kene tawakal pade Allah SWT.
Me: Ohh..
Slay: actually ko ni takut sesuatu kan? and ade bnde ko tngah carik tapi ko taktau ape bnde tu. kan kan kan??
Me: in my mind* (uik? mane die tau plak ni!?) peje, ko ngan arwah atuk same jela..
Slay: he gave me this this look and smile.
*laughing together*
Slay: dah, truk tepi jom masuk laut.

sometimes i just ignore this shitty feeling. then again, i cant escape it.
maybe im just tired.. or just playing stupid. bleahh..

maybe i update again tomorrow. MAYBE.

Malo lava~

bloke 169.

2010-02-01T22:43:00.002+08:00

to work on weekends, or not to work on weekends. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh crap!

anyway, try to find a place to blaja agama because the previous one was.. (dotdotdot)
not only me, but many ustaz and ustazah felt the same way so.. cant put the blame on me. :D
so naz is teaching at masjid gufran, somewhere in tampines i think.. i've no clue... -.-'

insyaallah, dapat sambung blaja dan mencari ilmu Allah S.W.T (:

bloke 168.

2010-01-17T15:17:00.001+08:00

I'm not a coward,
I've just never been tested
I'd like to think that if i was, i would pass
Look at the tested and think there but for the grace go
I might be a coward,I'm afraid of what I might find out.

(:

bloke 167.

2010-01-11T20:09:00.004+08:00

Jangan kerana cinta korang sanggup gadaikan maruah diri sendiri.

and-
i dont know why, but i have this 'guilty' feeling inside of me. BLEAH~

oya, WHERE THE HECK IS MY CHEQUE??!!?!! CPAT LA!!!
AI NID DE MONEY RITE NAO!!!

bloke 166.

2010-01-02T23:21:00.003+08:00

I was blind but now I can see
Cause I've found a new hope from above
And courage swept over me

bloke 165.

2009-12-24T15:06:00.002+08:00

I know many people will not watch this video.
well, screw you brah, thats your problem.

How a MAORI convert to ISLAM. (:

bloke 164.

2009-12-10T23:13:00.003+08:00

Thursday:

it was a suckish morning. i was so hype to go surfing, but then it rained.
reached desaru at 11-12+? not so good tho, waves are very choppy. :/
in the end we went Pamor, better than Desaru tho.. ehheh
just have fun out there, enjoying ourselves.

Friday:

Result day, not that nervous tho.
ok fine, i was stoked that they called my name up to the stage or whatever thing you call it.
tawakal je. everybody else get so excited, good for you guys.
okay whatever.

dpt result mcm dpt msuk syurga. -.-'

bloke 163.

2009-12-08T00:15:00.002+08:00

wondering around, looking at people, watching their behavior.
i now realized how stupid their words are.

why hope for something that is not going to happen?

bloke 162.

2009-12-06T14:07:00.002+08:00

a big WHY.

why drink?
why keep those things when you drink and doing crap all the time?
Malays are not Muslims, Malay is a race, not a religion. get that right brahh..

You guys are doing crap and doing shit all the time!
and yet, you guys keep bragging bout " Macam mane Melayu nak maju!? "
how pathetic is that?? you be the judge man.

Honestly, Im NOT perfect, but, Im trying to improve myself here.
and ya, i agree, everybody make mistakes. I totally agree on that and wont argue.

BUT!

sampai bile korang nk buat that same 'mistakes' ?

im not mad, im just sad.

bloke 161.

2009-12-03T00:15:00.004+08:00

I wandered,trying to find something precious.
Something precious that wouldn't change.

Something precious that is hard to find.
Something precious locked inside a glass bottle.
Something precious that's hard for me to get it.

bloke 160.

2009-12-01T17:01:00.003+08:00

i heard something awesome yesterday!
here how it goes.

malay guy 1: *drink drink drink (beer of course)*
malay guy 2: "eh, you eat porkchops before? delicious sia!!! "
malay guy 1: "your head!! eating pigs is HARAM what!! "

and drinking beer is not haram?
wow! but, nvm la.

diorg orang melayu, bukan orang Islam.. (:

bloke 159.

2009-11-28T00:00:00.001+08:00

if we sit down together and talk, we will understand one another.

bloke 158.

2009-11-24T23:48:00.002+08:00

Happiness comes from sincerity.

bloke 157.

2009-11-23T22:54:00.003+08:00

Through my window i can see our wildest dreams could be so real.

*though there is nothing much too see outside my window because of the stupid hdb flats blocking the view. pftt.

bloke 156.

2009-11-21T23:07:00.001+08:00

everything you need now has been right in front of your eyes

bloke 155.

2009-11-20T11:25:00.004+08:00

They can't tell me who to be
Cause I'm not what they see

The world is still sleepin while I keep on dreaming for me
And their words are just whispers and lies that I'll never believe..

bloke 154.

2009-11-19T09:34:00.003+08:00

The Girl: Believed in the harsh reality of life.
The Boy: Stubbornly believed in his dreams.

bloke 153.

2009-11-18T12:39:00.002+08:00

you know it's never too late to shoot for the stars.

bloke 152.

2009-11-13T13:38:00.002+08:00

going to Desaru for a week of intensive surf.
be back next week, soo..
until then.

tofa lava.

bloke 151.

2009-11-12T14:22:00.001+08:00

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle.
Life is a maze and love is a riddle.
I don't know where to go.
I can't do it alone and I don't know why.

( letting it out )

bloke 150.

2009-11-11T04:59:00.002+08:00

its 5 am in the morning,
dad is leaving for KL to go haj later at 10 am.

doa untuk ayah cpt sembuh dan selamat jalan ke Tanah Suci.
amin.

bloke 149.

2009-11-10T00:50:00.003+08:00

Before:

i love you soo much, i promise i wont leave you, you are my everything, you're my angel,
etc etc and whatever crap..

After:

I &^%*%& HATE YOU!!! YOU SUCK!! , YOU ARE VERY UGLY!!! , GET LOST B%$@&,
I DONT TRUST GUYS! GUYS/GIRL SUCK! etc etc and whatever crap goes on..

Surprisingly for the girls:

I HATE GUYS! I DONT TRUST GUYS!! GUYS SUCK!!
and 2,3 days later.... I LOVE YOU SAYANG!! blablabla is loved, I WONT LEAVE YOU!!

As for the guys:

well they just use the ex for personal reason (play and throw) as most would say.
goyang kaki, find new victim and keep doing at what they're doing best.

What my adik said:

''why you break up with her?'' (me)
"merepek la she! she very ugly!!" ( my brother)

hahahaiiiiiiii.... i was laughing like crap.
dah name pun budak. layan jela.. hahaiiii... ( entertainment for me :D )

yeah, guys are all the same.. but tk sume mcm tu.
girls, you cant blame the guys for everything. ppn pun ade mcm bangang jgk.

well, lets just face it, guys are like gays nowdays and girls, i dont know what you're trying to show.

out~

bloke 148.

2009-11-07T13:53:00.002+08:00

its been a year now.
thnx for helping me all those time.
really appreaciate it. (:

down with fever. bleahh!

bloke 147.

2009-11-03T15:50:00.003+08:00

HELP!!!!! TOLONG!!!!! FA'AMOLEMOLE, FESOASOANI MAI!!!!!!
seriously, i don't know what course to take.
tourism? retail? fitness? all i can think of is three. and i need five! i guess.. :/

bloke 146.

2009-10-31T15:52:00.002+08:00

the closer you get to something,
the tougher it is to see it.

bloke 145.

2009-10-25T20:50:00.002+08:00

sometimes when you're most alone, you're not alone at all.

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wind have already change direction, line is there, need to pick up little bit more.
a few more weeks im heading back to D-LAND!

bloke 144.

2009-10-18T21:23:00.002+08:00

nothing happened much this few days. just went out the whole day and that's it man..
just waiting for the monsoon swell to arrive and I'll be of to Desaru for 2 weeks.

bloke 143.

2009-10-13T23:11:00.003+08:00

when there is true desire in the heart and that desire is strong,
that is when he find real strength that even he did not know he had.
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and sorry to those people who tried to influence me doing bad things.
im just not into that and sorry bro i don't, don't want and will not drink those poison.
your words can't and will not penetrate through my brain/ear whichever -.-

kalau nk, ajak aku gi surau je or minum nescafe kat warung wak man. mmng yes punye la!

CMON WAVES!! WHERE ARE YOU!?

bloke 142.

2009-10-11T15:51:00.001+08:00

OFF TO DESARU FOR SOME SURF!

Fia Fia Fa'a Se'e!!!

block 141.

2009-10-11T00:54:00.002+08:00

so, there's no more school + no more MATHS..! = STOKED!
but but.. 2nd day after N-Level and i already feel bored. bleahh..

bloke 140.

2009-10-05T18:38:00.002+08:00

3 more days. then im FREE!!!

its stupid how people tell me to leave everything behind and just move there.
ya, im stubborn. so? it's my future man, not yours. i serah everything to Allah.

achieving my dreams and yet i have to leave the ones i love.. sorry brah. thats not me.
and if youre going to say me stupid then say it man.

if that what it means to be wise, then i rather be stupid for the rest of my life.

one more thing.

i maybe an idiot, but im not stupid like you!

bloke 139.

2009-10-04T11:28:00.003+08:00

so, science paper is tomorrow... insyallah can do..

im sooooooooooo pack after n levels.

October - gonna work my butt of.
November - still working.
2nd half of November - of to KL for a week and Shah Alam for another week.
December - to Desaru alone for a week and Cherating/Tioman for another week.

January 2010 - 2 January - 3 January: Monsoon Mayhem Surf Contest!!

bloke 138.

2009-09-26T14:29:00.002+08:00

the rest went raya and im at home, alone, talking to myself yet again..........

bloke 137.

2009-09-22T23:54:00.003+08:00

jodoh dari Allah S.W.T
alangkah indahnye... wooooooooooooooo~~ HAHAHAHAH
im serious here brahh.. -.-'
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ok, todays topic.

lumrah manusia kedua;
risau/worrying, why people now days love worrying bout small stuff?
wonder why.... i mean, i do worry bout stuff, sometimes...
like why my mom tk balik rumah lagi at this point of time. that kind of worrying.

not like risau sebab you dont have nice clothes to go out dating that kind of crap shit.
thats like paris hilton mann.. cmon!

risau sebab you didnt complete your task in school.. cmon!!!!
risau sebab you didnt get to go to the school you want.. cmon!!!
risau sebab you tak dapat A for every subjects.. cmon!!!!!!
risau sebab you didnt get top 5 in class... COME ON!!!!

hello, akhirat esok Allah tak akan tanye la kau dpt A for english atau tak.. tsk.
im not trying to say that you shouldnt study and not achieving grades,
you can and infact in islam, you are encourage to cari ilmu, but..
jangan la sampai merosak kan badan diri sendiri...

Rasullullah SAW said;
Worrying and sadness will destroy the body.

tk caye? tanye la ustz korang..

with super good grades do you think that you'll be successful in the future?
Allah SWT decide.

memandangkan aku dah luah kan perasaan.. boleh la tido dngn aman. weeeeeee~

bloke 136.

2009-09-21T17:25:00.002+08:00

2nd day raya, and im still in Singapore.
boring gila kat sini.. tk boleh buat 'project' dngn slay and the others..
prbbly having fun in Pahang, as for Jig and Brian, diorg dah balik sarawak 2 days ago..

dan tinggal la aku seorang diri kat tempat bosan ni... bahhhh. bummer..
i feel like skipping school this week. then go balik Pahang. kan best?!

sorry nek kiah... zint x dpt balik kampung.. ):

bloke 135

2009-09-21T01:55:00.001+08:00

zul, youre such an idiot.

bloke 134.

2009-09-19T01:25:00.004+08:00

had an accident last night.

9 cuts on knees, arms, risks, hip and elbows.
Bruise foot and hip.
swollen muscle on hamstring and arms.

still able to crawl my way back home with bleeding arms.
nasib baik la tk kene langgar. klau tak memang tak raye la taun ni. huhu
and not to forget, my tummy hurts a lot man... s:

to someone:
please dont kill me!!!!

bloke 133.

2009-09-17T00:13:00.002+08:00

hmm..

bestkan kalau kite ade girlfriend yang baik, sopan santun, lemah lembut, penyayang.
hahahah! not that i desperately want someone in my life. ghahaha!

im serious. -.-'

sometimes i feel like laughing at people having bgr at our age.
and.. i donotknow whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy... hahaha

anyway,
3 days im up all night watching Hurley Pro. Live telecast from USA itself. stoked!

bloke 132.

2009-09-10T13:01:00.007+08:00

lumrah manusia:

kebanyakan students lepas habis skola je, terus masuk ite, jc, or poly itu ini.
benda ni lazim berlaku, but does all students umur gitu will take the same steps?

there will always have two types of people in this world.
one who have purpose in life and the other, well... taking life for granted.

i just want something different in my life.
though he's not my real grandpa, i always looked up to tok alang.
taught me everything man.

people like Dede Suryana and Rob Machado, both these man have been very inspirational to me.

movies like 'mengejar ombak' and 'the drifter' is a totally must watch movie!
very inspiring and.. its something different.

different, people said im different. well, i like it!
because i want my life to be different from others.

The Drifter - Rob Machado:

bloke 131.

2009-09-01T18:49:00.003+08:00

DUM! DADA DUM! DADA DUM! DADA DUM!
DUM! DUM! DUM!

My birthdays present.
amin... dpt jugak.

kalau tk beli sendiri confom tk dpt. :/

bloke 130.

2009-08-31T21:57:00.004+08:00

her name is maisarah. and shes 4! hahaha cute right!? :P

and look at what ive just won from MTV SWAG!
NEW BOARD BEBEH!!!! HAHAA!

bloke 129.

2009-08-27T17:39:00.003+08:00

Cerita tentang seorang pengemis. ( story of a beggar )

one things for sure that Allah S.W.T really do accept your prayers.
want proof? can show it to you, just follow me to mersing and you'll meet him.

his story began a year ago during the month of ramadan.
he have no home, no family, no money and no nothing.
but he was a devoted muslim, pandai bace quran, masuk waktu je dia ade kat surau.
like always, people will kutuk him saying him busuk la, kotor la, this that this and that.

but he didn't care all that. always by the side praying on his own.

one day while waiting for buke kat warung depan surau, he was there too.
asking and begging for food. and i freakin cant remeber the last meal he had.
the thing that made a.g and me open our eyes was when he was kicked to the ground by 3 men.
not only that, he was also dihina.

thats when a.g and me started a fight there, on that spot with those 3 guys.
not trying to be a hero, but trying to protect a muslim brother.

and i swear to god, if you were there, you guys going to be in a total shock!

after the incident, we decided to take him home. saying
" bro, why dont you stay with us? it will be fun. (: dari pade kau merempat kat sini takde keje"
the looks on this dudes face, tears just roll down. even i cried. seriously.

on the night where everything was settled (after the make over and stuff)
this brother, was actually good looking. seriously brah! haha
he then told us his past bout, how he was treated by his aunts when his parents died.
and how he became a beggar.

since the house in mersing was just our 'weekend house', we decided to let him stay there and jaga the place for us.

he took care of the house very well, a.g gave him a job, and later on became a religous teacher at the local madrasah. with his quran knowledge he taught young ones ngaji at the very same surau.

and now, months passed. already have a lovely loving wife with a twin baby boy and girl.
SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we just met them 2 days ago.

the only important thing that bout him now is that
he have a family and 6 adik angkat.

have faith, be sincere, be an honest man/woman and dont give up.

and that is the story of a beggar.

(:

bloke 128.

2009-08-26T22:27:00.001+08:00

day by day, its getting lesser and lesser.

bloke 127.

2009-08-26T17:20:00.001+08:00

down with flu. bleahh..

bloke 126.

2009-08-23T23:38:00.004+08:00

N level - 15 Days.

R.I.P Jeff Johnson.
1944 - 2009.

feel happy when solat-ing kat masjid.
rindu pulak solat kat surau kampung. rase sejuk je lepas solat. wooooo~~~~

bloke 125.

2009-08-22T22:17:00.003+08:00

N Level - 16 Days

prelim result....

alhamdulillah i pass.
next stop, N Level!!
i'll show the people that i too can achieve. insyaallah. (:

oh ya,

Setting Niat.
Upgrade Iman.
Download Sabar.
Delete Dosa.
Install Taubat.
Approve Maaf.
Search for Pahala.

HAPPY RAMADAN TO ALL MUSLIM!!!

bloke 124.

2009-08-19T22:40:00.005+08:00

N Level - 18 Days.

im worry to much. no, not bout N level. im worried bout my future.
maybe im thinking to much man. bleah...

its funny how people kept complaining bout thier lives.
bout "love". bout every little things.
they are complaining bout thier situation without knowing that others are facing alot more worst situation then them.

and do you know how pissed i am when a girl said
"i wanna commit suicide because my parents dont care bout me. and i always fight with my boyfriend" you know how pathetic that was? -.-''

hello babe, ape kau merepek ni...?? can you like understand your parents? theyre busy because they want to support you, send you to school, make you happy. walaupun diorg tu busy they still have time for you, because they love you.
and boyfriend, who ask you to be in love with that no life matrep? tkde org suruh kau pun.
there! there's your freakin answer!

and ape kejadahnye kau nak bunuh diri? kau blaja agama babe, bukan tak blaja. aduaiiii
mcm ini punya olang pun ala ka? wa tala paham woooooooooooooooooooooooooooo......
tala bole tahan woooooooooooooooooooooooo....!! mau mati woooooooooooooooooooo....!!!!

honestly, i cannot tahan with STUPID complains anymore. want counseling? can, no hal.
1hour = 10 bucks. okay? or just blanja me laksa at banquet.

skian trimas.

bloke 123.

2009-08-16T01:39:00.005+08:00

ok look, im sick and tired of you talking bout my personal life to others!
get out of my life la!

so what people around you already have bf/gf!?
are you freakin desperate already?!!

and since when youre 'so close' to her!?
whats your problem anyway brah?? pft..

stop entering my life! stop bragging bout the people i love to others!
my god, grow up man! its non of your business!
and i thought people like you don't exist anymore.

thats it man, youre not worth it.

bloke 122.

2009-08-13T23:24:00.002+08:00

Confuse, lazy, bored.

PRELIM OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

can relax a bit from all those studying.

before prelim, i kept telling myself to study, so i did and now..
ITS FREAKIN OVER!!! hoho! i guess it paid off? except for maths tho.
don't even think bout asking me a maths question. seriously... -.-

since prelim is over, i've been planning this trip after N Level. hhahaha
like they said, to go somewhere far, you need to plan months before the actual date.
so, i did. :P

well, not that far, at Pahang je.

so guys, study your butt off for N levels then work for the cash!!

Fa'afetai and tofa.

bloke 121.

2009-08-10T23:12:00.003+08:00

because the feeling inside me said so.
and i cant fight it.

bloke 120.

2009-08-05T15:27:00.004+08:00

lesson 17 :

Regrets are better left unspoken.

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totally tired and bored with nothing to do except studying. *BLEARGH!
so far, prelim was okay i guess, till i screw up the formal letter.
so umm, so far so good.

nothing much happened this days, until someone questioned me bout what im going to do/be in the next 5 years. so i was like, why you ask?

up till today, that question remained in my head.

a pro surfer? start a company? maybe one of this. or even both! insyaallah*
of course im not going to go with the flow like most dudes out there.
waiting something miracle to happen.

"sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum itu sehingga mereka sendiri mengubah nasib mereka."

and like atuk said;
" its not easy to get what we want and what we dream of. 9 out of 10 people gave up when they already reaching for their goals."

if dede can chase waves, why not me? kannnn?? haha

oyea, people kept asking me this question.
" hey zul bile nak ade gf? haha " " hey zint! find one! so youre not left out!"

and they're laughing about it as if it's funny or something.
and what you mean "left out" !? -.-'' IM NOT LEFT OUT!!
look at those pictures i just post! i love her with all my heart!

cinta? love?
sorry brahh, ni sume esok luse boleh cerita.

now stop asking me this question.

Aloha malama pono`

bloke 119.

2009-07-21T20:51:00.003+08:00

lesson 16:

chase it.

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One day, i'll be like that.

one day.

bloke 118.

2009-07-20T15:14:00.002+08:00

Lesson 15:

Remember the past, but don't look back.

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my temperature 39 right now.
currently studying and busy with the games.

i feel crap. blearh!

bloke 117.

2009-07-14T16:18:00.002+08:00

THANKS FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISH EVERYONE!!
thanks syafiqah and afiqah for the chocolates. hahahahahahh
really appreciate it (:

after 9 years.
i need to buy myself a birthday present. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

bloke 116.

2009-07-11T20:41:00.003+08:00

been screwed! great. totally great...

btw.. tmoro 3-4 foot swell hitting desaru. STOKED!

bloke 114.

2009-07-05T00:37:00.002+08:00

ok so.. i kena gari at home with nothing to do.
maybe off to kota on monday. yes people.. im going alone..

bloke 113.

2009-06-27T18:36:00.004+08:00

you guys ever heard the story of cinta and kawan?
kay here how it goes.

suatu hari CINTA dan KAWAN berjalan-jalan di kampung.. tiba2
Cinta jatuh dalam telaga.. kenape??

kerana CINTA itu buta...
lalu KAWAN pun ikut terjun dalam telaga.. why??

coz KAWAN akan buat ape saje demi CINTA !!!

Di dalam telaga.. CINTA hilang.. kenape??

kerna CINTA itu halus, mudah hilang kalau tk dijage, sukar dicari
apatah lagi dalam telaga yang gelap...

sedangkan KAWAN masih lagi tercari-cari dimana CINTA dan terus menunggu..
kenapa??

kerana KAWAN itu sejati dan akan kekal sebagai KAWAN yang setia... kan??

soooo.. hargai la KAWAN kita selagi kita terasa dia BERERTI..

Walau kita punya couple,
teman still paling setia.
walau kita punya harta banyak,
teman still paling berharga.

and i dont even know why im typing this shit.
coz this msg apparently wont go into peoples head. bleargh..

bloke 112.

2009-06-24T01:55:00.002+08:00

Be together, share your joy and sorrow, understand each other, provide space to each other, but always be there for each others need. And surely love will blossom to strengthen your relationship with your matter of affection

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.
- William Shakespeare.

bloke 111.

2009-06-22T18:20:00.003+08:00

- love is an honest and sincere gift to someone.

- zint. -

bloke 110.

2009-06-18T03:26:00.004+08:00

i don't get to have fun with them. i don't get to laugh with them.
its already 'good' that someone call me an outcast of the family.

i thought things going to turn out pretty good but then.. this happened.
been away for 2 weeks was fun. and people just accept me for who i am and not trying to change me to become someone im not.. for 2 weeks i can forget all my problems and for the first time just having fun with people..

like they said. time flies when you're having fun. it just suck to be here and doing nothing.
and all i get was suffering from people im 'close' with.

but wth? i cant do anything about it.
the words from that old man taught me something.
he taught me to be forever strong in the water and also to be forever strong everywhere i go so that i can overcome any obstacle in life. keeping that words in my heart, i know that something bright is coming my way.

just feel like leaving this island and forget everything that happened here.
not wanting to come back.

4 more months.
- and im out

kia kaha.

bloke 109.

2009-06-07T20:26:00.004+08:00

SOOOOOOOOOOOO BUSY THIS WEEK!!
full with job rdy.. haha..

okay..

8|6|09 - pontian, Johor.

9|6|09 - KL.

10|6|09 - Shah Alam.

11|6|09 - 13|6|09 - Kelantan.

so tiring wo.. i like.. hahaha
aniway.. just gt back from pontian.. my cuzzin gt married.
some pics below..

hantaran, pengantin, misc etc etc.

bloke 108.

2009-06-02T20:15:00.005+08:00

HAVE A

BIG

MAJOR

PROBLEM!!

i need advice!!!

* zul pengsan.

bloke 107.

2009-05-25T20:58:00.003+08:00

Passing of a great man.

Slay messaged me just now..
saying that.. tok man already left us..
i read the msg inside the bus on the way home and tears just come out.
i even try to control it.. a girl stared at me btw.. heh.

tok man. a 74year old man with a pure heart. always there helping others in need.
the funny man in our 'tribe' heh..
always remember you in our hearts.

a brother of tok alang

Abdul Mansor bin Abdullah
1935 - 2009

bloke 106.

2009-05-23T21:31:00.004+08:00

lesson 14:

get lost

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A FUN DAY WITH KAI AND MABLE!! HAHAHHAHAHAHAA!!!

went swimming just now. kay, at first i have no mood to go.. and lagi sikit nk cancel with
ajill. since i have nothing to do at home.. so wth.. pergi je..

so swimming and swimming and i met this two siblings, kai and mable. hahah so cute :Pp
but very naughty..well.. they made my day.. haha!
Kai and Mable is a student of ajill. instead of listening to him, they splash/jumping and do cannonballs at me. -.-' hahahaha. *pdn muke kene marah :Pp

when its time to say goodbye kai asked me. "zint.. are you coming next saturday??" ahaha
dun wry lil brahh. im coming. :D

i just love kids haha. cute ones tho. not the one that kicked a cat and then pull its tail then swing it 360 degrees and toss it in the river. poor cat. s:
oh! this really happened! IM NOT LYING!! THIS REALLY FREAKIN HAPPENED!!
this happened when i was back in Desaru. i still remember that kid's name. his name is Imran. nakal giler!!!! * dala 'pau' aku 60sen beli ice cream.. tk gune -.-'' *

hehe.. went back and ajill drop me of at Chua Chu Kang mrt station.
and it was my first time taking a train from Chua Chu Kang.
so i was abit confuse where to go, then i saw a few people tapping their ex-link cards at the tapping machine. so i followed them la..

then something odd happened. i tapped my card and the thing wont open.
so i was like. " apehal bnde ni tk bukak ni!? " i was frustrated la.
and then i looked up and saw the sign. it says ' LRT '.

WAHHH SHIT!!! MALU GILER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! luckily no one notice.. HAHAHA!
but i think the girl.. nehh.. hahahahhahha! siot.. malu giler.. -.-''

i quikly walk away from there..i wanted to laugh, but i kept telling myself
" tahan zul tahan!! " hahaha

so............... itu la wa munya cilitaaaaaaaa.. hahaha! yela!! laugh laugh!! tk gune.. :/

thnx kids for making my day!!
k skarang dah ade mood. sape nk kacau? sila sila. jgn segan.. huhuuu

bloke 105.

2009-05-20T20:20:00.005+08:00

lesson 13:

Dreams do come true. * trust me! i already can see it. just need to run over there. aha!

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ya i can see it.. BUT! wrong timing la!!!!!!!!!!! 128 DAYS MORE TO N-LEVEL!
aduhhh.. but luckily they understand :D
im not going to make the same mistake like i did for my psle. -.-'

ok psle was nearby.. and so's the team Singapore rugby trial. you know what i did?
put the books aside and concentrating on rugby videos/tactics and skills instead.
people studying at library/home im at the field studying rugby. huhuuu..

i didnt care at all man. because at that point of time, rugby is everything to me.
when i gt back my results.. it was bullshit.. i could've done better. but i don't want to.

ofcourse i feel all so glum and dissapointed.. 2 days later.. i went to the final trial session.
that is the day when day announce the names of people who make it.
nervous ade.. nak terberri pun ade.. huhuuu..

then suddenly. "Ahmad Zulhilmi from Si Ling Primary!" BWAHH!!! STOKED!
all my worries for psle gone. HAHAHAHHAA!

so the moral of the storey is:
you can achieve anything you want if you put your mind into it.

BUT! yala! don't be stupid like me! huhuu.. yaya! go ahead and laugh.. -.-'

then.. something popup in my head. the words from atuk never left.
only then i realize that i must do this.. i need this freakin cert to achieve my goals.

but my study method sucks man.. even my mom said its weird. -.-'
i need someone to be my tutor.. hmm..

any non-judgemental and will not lookdown on people willing to help this guy??

bahh.. im pathetic.

bloke 104.

2009-05-17T22:59:00.005+08:00

lesson 12:

don't hurt yourself.

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i'm still mabok from the fishing trip yesterday.
oh! i caught a fish!! ikan duri -.-'' tk besar pun.. kecik je.. huhuuu.. well.. atleast i caught one.

its pretty boring actually.. being the only 16 year old guy and the rest are like 40 above. -.-'
all and all was a good trip tho.. hahaha

hmm.. phuket is just around the corner man... so's prelim exams.
i dont know. looking at the poster suddenly feel all so "wahh!! stoked!!!"
but at the same time.. prelims... ntah... worried/scared.
coz prelim result can be use for ITE. so im like hoping the prelims turn out good la.

surf or prelim? bahhh...

OI ZUL!! GILA KA?! MESTI LA SURF!! HAHAHAHHAHAAHHAH!!!

pastu.. bru concentrate prelim and N-level. nyehehee :D

senyum senyum selalu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

bloke 103.

2009-05-14T21:42:00.004+08:00

lesson 11:

Hidup Mesti Slamber!!

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and PHUKET HERE I COME!!!

bloke 102.

2009-05-09T12:59:00.004+08:00

lesson 10:

Grab it, dont let go.

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mid year exam and im still having fun around hahahahha. BUT! that doesnt mean i din study. :/

exam finish @ 11.. so 11am to 5pm study like mad at library.
5pm - 930pm go watch a movie. hahahahhah! eh best tau! haha :Pp
i mean.. its just like watching tv for 1 1/2hrs. only in a dark room. hhaha

didnt do anything much today.. went down for a jog and do some ball skills..
went home and slept at 2. -.-''

its just a random interview.

Would you jinx yourself to take a good/awesom/ and some people would say FISH?! GNARLY DUDE!!! photo shot??

- okok what kind of question is this?? OFCOURSE MAAAAANNNNNN!

What do you think of singapore ruggers nowdays?

- freakin dimwitted/jerks/self-centered morons who always thinks about winning and not playing for the fun of it.

About someone who is close to you. what about her/him?

- its a she. and she's changed my outlook on a lot of things in life.
It's not something i really want to expose or anything other than to say i'm really lucky and a grateful guy.
just like Slay said " it really changed my perspective on shit."

In cities? or in kampung?

- cmmon brah.. ofcoz kampung. i just love nature. nature is all things mannnn. If it has a form, its nature brah..

About saving whales, dolphins and marine wildlife.

- hundreds and thousands of marine mammals are killed every year from our unsustainable fishing method. im doing what i can to expose this facts. but living in singapore, i just cant do anything but to watch. bahhh.. maybe a petition would do. SEA SHEAPHERD GO!!

Your surf-mates.

- they're pretty rad maann.. i mean, no one's is going to look down on you for doing your own things. you can do anything you want and they are still gonna be your friends, still respect you. but dont go overbored man.. still looking out for each other. unlike here in school. students freakin judgemental man.. hating someone just bcoz his dad's malaysian? what the fish is that all about? dweep.

What happen if you were invited in big wave invitational?

- hohohoo.. STOKED!! Being invited is all i ever wanted brahh. hahaha :D

How bout the influence from other kids that's into hell of a stupid stuff?

- i met this kid on my block. and evertime i saw her, she ask me to get high and try drinking.
and everytime i tell her that. IM NOT INTO THAT. she says all the kids are doing it.
well, if that's true. then why can't she find someone else to do it with? cmon brahh! god give you brainn to think whats right! dumarse.

This interview is over. how bout a new stick to shred?

- wait another 5 years brahh *laugh*

I'LL DO ANYTHING TO GO FOR AN ADVENTURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ANYWHERE! PLEASE PLEASE! NOT IN SINGAPORE!! ELSEWHERE BRAHHH!!!
WARGHHH!!!!!!

* zul pengsan *

* zul CHIONG-ING FOR SCIENCE PAPER ON TUESDAY!

bloke 101.

2009-05-01T23:30:00.004+08:00

lesson 9:

don't just keep quiet. have the courage to speak up!

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im 16. (okay maybe not yet..) k ape-ape la -.-''

i shouldn't be complaining now.. but ya.. this time of the year that is really boring and all la.. because this is the year we're taking the N levels and O's to some..

maybe it's the way it suppose to be.. its like. when you reach 16 your life is going to change. and only after 16, life starting to go back the way it is..

well.. 16 is the time of year that.. ntah cmne nak ckp. just take it as 'its for our future'.
so.. just run and go straight. and as day past, you started to see that 'thing' you want so badly.

and kalau la ade longkang. kita lompat sama-sama!! and if you fall.. i help you.

kan shaz? hahahaha

senyum senyum selalu!!!!! :D

bloke 100.

2009-04-30T18:37:00.004+08:00

lesson: 8

with patience, you can have anything.

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didn't do anything much lately. down with fever for a WEEK! -.-'
so that's that.

let me ask you guys.
do you guys have the feelings that you wanted to find something. but you don't really know what is it that you're looking for? well.. i have that kind of feeling.

and it just really frustrating to look for something that you cant really find.
maybe one day that thing just popup infront of me. but i don't know..
maybe it will maybe it wont. hahaa just have to be patience with it i guess. hahahaaa

ohh...

EVERYTHING IS THE SAME EVERY SINGLE DAY MAN!!!
BOSAN GILERRRRRRRRRR!!!!
i really really got to do something bout it... bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

oh ohh!! one more thing..

remember the plot i was talking about? hhahaha im 1/3 done with it.
but cmon!! bukan senang nk recall balik zaman jahiliah aku tu dulu.. huhuuu
but i dunnu why i enjoy doing it.. pelik tapi benar.

so whatever it is

senyum senyum selalu!!! hahhaa :DD

bloke 99.

2009-04-14T23:31:00.004+08:00

lesson 7:

Be Strong.

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Insomnia

Insomnia is a symptom of a sleeping disorder characterized by persistent difficulty falling asleep or staying asleep despite the opportunity.

i've not been sleeping for the past week. yea.. im an owl. huhuu..
it sucks really. i cant concentrate in school.. my science.. dont even talk bout it.
hmm.. currently studying for tomorrow's test.

i feel like sleeping but i don't know. i just can't go to bed. my eyes are tired. im tired.
if i use a tape to shut my eyes pun tk gune..
bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

i need sleeping pills. -.-''

bloke 98.

2009-04-12T20:21:00.004+08:00

lesson 6:

jangan cepat percaya kat orang.

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i don't know why im so happy yesterday. sampai tido pun boleh tersenyum. -.-''
okok that one my mom told me la.. she terperanjat and scared at the same time.. then woke me up and tell me.. thats how i know.. haha
maybe because... "me to know you to find out" =Pp

just gt back from madrasah.. had a camp meeting for next week..
sembelih ayam beb.. hhahaha!! i dont know how the kids are going to be like..
BUT! i can already know whats gg to happen somehow. haha. sai-kik :D

can already see kids running around.. and some guys like geli holding the chicken.
and so called matrep takut walking alone in the dark.. yea.. terer la sngt. -.-''
but i dunu.. i maybe wrong. well.. we just have to see whats going to happen next friday
then.

OH! im freakin worried bout the night walk.. because they're gg to walk in a jungle. which is.. you guys know la.. mcm2 ade kat dalam hutan kan? i mean.. as a facilitator, sape tk risau oiiiiiiiiii -.-'' i mean this kids.. ok theyre from sec3 i know them well kinda.. -.-
and most of them are actually err.. jakon with this kind of things. no offence tho.. huhuuu..

oya. guys.. slay told me got 3 seats left. anyone intrested?
tioman island 100rm = 50sgd
3 days 2 night. makan minum, transport siap. 3rd weeks of june. anyone intrested beep me.

bloke 97.

2009-03-31T20:41:00.008+08:00

lesson 5:

everyone have feelings, remember that.

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because i am sick and tired of you saying me that over and over and over and over again.
you're saying something that im not. try that to others and see how they feel.
i am certainly not a dummy and i do have feelings. try be in my place, you know how it feels.
dah tak tau lagi mcm mane nk jadi seorang yang ikhlas dan jujur.

what to do.. just face the reality laa.. kan??

anyway.. new chap of lawak kampus.

bloke 97.

2009-03-30T21:00:00.004+08:00

lesson 4:

appreciate and accept one another.

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apa mau cilita?

one things for sure that i won't be talking bout school.
coz you guys will be reading the same thing over and over again.
which is pretty darn boring. but but! if theres something interesting like when
Slay, a.g and me broke into the school and turn the tables and chairs upside down.
and take out red ink and wrote down on the wall saying "PERGI!! HAHAHAHA!"
the whole canteen and a few classes has it chairs and tables upsidedown! hahahahaha!
well it was late at night really.. like 2 - 3 am plus? well interesting and suprisingly!!
the next day,during assembly the principle said no school for a week! wkakakaak!
how great was that?! wkakaka! then we check it out. we saw 2 bomoh came down to the school. the 3 of us heard that the bomohs.. haha bomohs.. -.-'' ookk the bomoh actually said that the school is haunted and a girl's spirit is wondering around the school.

we were at the back laughing our ass out! wakakakakakakkaa!!
can't believe they really fall for it. whahahahhahah!!!!

yea brahh.. good ol times hahahahhha!

one things for sure that im not regreting going desaru when sam ajak me.
haha ya!! im a kampung boy!!

kiteorang manusia yang dikecuali kan.
SYABAS ZINT!! HAHAHAHAHHAHA

YA!! AKU MEMANG TERER!!!!!

bloke 96.

2009-03-29T22:50:00.004+08:00

lesson 3:

each and everyone of us have our on way.

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wahhhhhh!!! i'll go gaga over her!!! wohooo!!
hahahahahhahahhahah!!!

XP

maybe 1 day. (:

LAWAK KAMPUS CHAP 3!!!!!!!

bloke 95.

2009-03-28T00:29:00.006+08:00

lesson 2:

we are all different.

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all im gg to do is just garuk bontot and walk away.

and you want to know why??

coz i hate losing people like you
i don't even know why this have to happen.

just want to say that im sorry.
i want us to be like what we used to be.
thats all.

is this how it suppose to be ??

bloke 94.

2009-03-26T23:54:00.010+08:00

lesson 1:

love the one who love you.
not love the one who like you.

cause the one who like you will leave you for the one they love.

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in which case aku tkyah risau psl bende ni sume!! mahahahah!
just a reminder to you guys out there. (:

i've been studying my butt off.. kinda..
been studying marine biology, geography, geology and history.
teacher don't even teach me this subs.i study it for fun though.. but what the heck. i love it!!
it's fun in a weird way.. i enjoy it. really.. -.-''
and who knew library can make you relax. atleast to me that is.
i don't know about other guys my age.

well.. to be honest.. i don't really care bout that. im not that academic type of person.
im just getting the grades for Nlevel and im off joining Slay's business.
wait! no.. that's not it.. my goals is to reach up to diploma. and then off joining Slay's business.

and yea.... we must study. study to maintain that good result we had.
people in class kept competing againts each other and see who gets the highest.
and really brahh.. i kept looking at them and all i see is a bunch of retards.

okok don't get me wrong. not all of them.. but most.

and this goes to friend of mine.

no wonder youre having stress, all you did was study study study and study
when was the last time you have fun?? when was the last time you smile??
although you showed it all to your friends.. but i don't think it was real.

yea.. i know this year is O levels but study smart brahh...
have fun! be stupid for once in a while!! broke a few rules!
as slay always said. rules are meant to be broken!!

you kept doing the same thing everyday all over and over again.
and i know you're not going to read this. and if you do.
i don't think you'll put this in your mind.
and then you're off complaining saying school sucks la..
banyak assignment la.. banyak homework la.. ni la tu la.. school sucks cause you want it to be.
but memang betul pun.. school really sucks.. hahahahahhahaha!

then.. let me ask you this
tk boring ke..?

you told me to get a life.
and now im telling YOU to get a life.

i know you're good,loving,caring person.
and i believe that youre going to be a succesfull person one day.
just don't give up. (:

im putting things behind me.
like someone said. the road to happines is to forget the past.

sekian.
trimas.

zint. "YA!! AKU MEMANG DILAHIRKAN TERER DAN HENSEM!!

bloke 93.

2009-03-25T21:16:00.004+08:00

there are thing that can make me happy tho..

i guess.. and i really really feel i can be happy if this stuff were to happen.

to have a family once AGAIN.
to go surfing with mates AGAIN.
to be a normal teenager.
to have an adventure.
to have close friends to share my moments with.
people to accept me for who i am.
to be there for the one i love (which is freakin impossible la..)
hahahahahhahhahahahhahahahahha! -.-''

oya.. before i forgot.

NEW CHAP OF LAWAK KAMPUS! ENJOY! (:

bloke 92.

2009-03-24T18:08:00.005+08:00

i didn't sleep for the past two days. i can't sleep.
maybe its because i kept thinking bout it.
and its fcking hard to just forget the past and forget what just happened.

its my fault i know. i take advantage of you and i didn't care bout whats your situation like.
just wanted to apologize. and im sorry...

thank you for being there for me.
thank you for helping me.
thank you for making me smile.
thank you for accepting me for who i am.
thank you for everything.

its so hard to do and so easy to say. and i really don't know what to do now.
mcm mane ikhlas pun.. there.. it ends.... i just dont know what to continue next.

well guys i just have 1 thing to say.
happy happy selalu!! (:

bloke 91.

2009-03-23T20:07:00.005+08:00

okok.. you guys ever read lawak kampus? i tell you its freakin funny! haha okok to know the comic strip you'll need to know the characters.

Vannes - hansome and pretty evil. funny n can be good at times (errr). always where goggles on head
Froggy - the green character. half frog half human. he's freakin smart and talented in a weird way * wearing chealsea jersey.
Aditas - very sporty. at times very stupid. haha
Si Kosong - tengok name korang da tau kenape. haha he's the guy that always gets 0 for test.
Bepop - this guy have pimples all over his face. and no confidents.
Mickey and Shark Head - theyre always together. weirdos.. -.-'
Ami and Yumi - cute twin sisters can be evil at times
Lisa - very2 pretty shes tough tho. VERY tough
Xena - freakin ugly girl who is in love with vannes. well vannes despise her.. and.. he just hate her la.. haha. me to actually :Pp

ive posted the first so enjoy. oya. this happens to me during pre school. i swear to god. -.-

bloke 90.

2009-03-21T23:06:00.004+08:00

i've got to accept things from now on.
the lost of the ones i love most. just have to move on with life. change the way i think
and start appreciate things.

Although losing a friend makes me glum. but.. what can i do..?
even if i apologized theres a high chances that he/she might not forgive me. even if he/she did. things wont be the same again. orang da tk suke.. nk buat mcm mane kan?

im just thankful to have a friend like you and i appreciate your help and all. thanx (:

i kept on smiling when i see cute kids, people with their love ones even people i don't know went out with their friends. k its weird but i dont even know why la really -.-''

im still hiding behind a fake smile. and thats all i can do to make the one closes to me
feel happy and not worrying bout me.

i just want to start things all over again. not depending on one person.
a mix of the old and the new zul. 70% old 30% new.

and of course im not going to be like those stuck up dum mother fish crackers.
sorry brahhh theres no seriousness inside me. dot.
i don't like it, arwah tok alang don't like it. for god sake! nobody i know likes it! -.-''

"I SWEAR I've told my life story so many
times that it doesn't feel real anymore
- IT'S WEIRD."

there for. let me start over again.

" hey! im zul nice to meet you! whats your name?" (:

bloke 89.

2009-03-20T22:54:00.003+08:00

i don't want to and i won't.
but i simply can't.

sorry seems to be the hardest word.

bloke 88.

2009-03-16T13:10:00.003+08:00